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An Honor Not to Fight On Their Side

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In my semester and a few weeks of stay in my current college, I have been given a chance to experience key things the university has espoused since its foundation. First, fighting for the truth, considering that the university’s patron, Thomas Aquinas, is an advocate of the truth. Second, martyrdom, feeling the grace to face persecution head on.

Also, I have been given a fine opportunity to fight a battle I feel I have been prepared for all my life. And leading this battle towards truth is a humbling experience for me. I have had ups and downs as I trudge through this struggle; God’s test of my patience, capability, zeal, and strength. From my “removal” as HIRAYA EIC to the constant lambasts, both private and public, indulged into by my student critics and professor opponents, all of these have tested what “CARLO MASAJO” is truly made of.

I entered and left my post with my dignity intact; I have done my job to the letter and even beyond. And with the disagreement that spurred between me and the administration which caused me my post, I am gratified. It is an honor for me to have acceded to the challenge of telling the truth.

And as I continue this battle, I am amazed with how I fared through all the pressure.I may have had my share of critics, but my performance, they can never criticize. I have faced every question with grace and ease. I pray to the Lord for strength and grace to finish this with triumph for everyone.

It is an honor not to fight on the side of people who have conspired to hide the truth, under assumptions that CFAD students will not look anyway. Half-truth is not the truth. And it is a disgrace to be part of its advocates. I can never be amenable to being editor in chief whose job is to be the dean’s PR officer. I am answerable to the readers, and to God only, and never to him or any of his alipores. The truth’s side is a cold, lonely place, but it makes one’s existence truly worthwhile.

It is sad to note that we have people in CFAD who think that we (students) are students, and are carefree. We are not, and we will never be. We are people impassioned by our art form, and advocates for the truth. Is art not truth in itself? The people who fight for the truth may be temporally persecuted, but shall reap the rewards of heaven and the affirmation of the court of public opinion; those who hide the truth lie in the gates and the ovens of hell. I’d rather fight on the side of righteousness and the truth alone than fight on their side and lose myself and my principles.

But even if I am alone, it is an honor for me not to fight on their side. I’ll take my lonely battle position with grace, as I have always done.

(Please read the Varsitarian online at http://varsitarian.net )

Of Unclean Mouths and a Future in Peril

Note: All comments attached to this blog were posted at http://akosijcmasajo.wordpress.com and were not posted by me even if it actually has my name. The email therein is not my official email address. Enjoy reading as I did!!!

I received funny comments about my last blog, but it made me happy since now, because of a future ill-fated CFAD SC, my readership for one day rose to about 200. A record high for my blog, but not just that; a victory for the majority of CFD students who see the problem/s/ the way I do.

Please pardon the comments, they were done in my wordpress blog, and I decided not to post them because they posted obscene contect (and these people used my name):

 

1. carlo masajo | masahol@carlo.com | IP: 222.127.223.71

 

tangina mo bading!!!!

 

Oct 13, 6:56 PM — [ Edit | Delete ] — View post “Dahil ang Leader, Open ng 24 Hours… Sabi Nila. Totoo ba?”

 

2. carlo masajo | masahol@carlo.com | IP: 222.127.223.71

 

gago, kaya ka natanggal sa HIRAYA kasi nahuli ka ng-BJ sa orgroom, bading!!! hanggang sa CFAD ngkakalat ka, hindi ka pa namatay nung nasa AB ka!!! tigilan mo na UST!!!

 

Oct 13, 7:01 PM — [ Edit | Delete ] — View post “The Death of Students’ Rights in CFAD”

 

3. carlo masajo | masahol@carlo.com | IP: 222.127.223.71

 

hehehe thanx, kmusta pg-BJ ko sayu

 

Oct 13, 7:06 PM — [ Edit | Delete ] — View post “Ang Pagtatapos ng Isyu”

 

4. carlo masajo | masahol@carlo.com | IP: 222.127.223.71

 

to concerned lasallian

 

- excuse me, taga-UST ka ba? shut up please…

 

Oct 13, 7:09 PM — [ Edit | Delete ] — View post “CFAD SC RESIGN”

 

Ayan po. Witness for yourselves. I completely know that decent Thomasian student leaders with appropriate breeding and udnerstanding do not respond this way. The student leaders of UST are prudent, even udner critical opposition. Nakakatuwa basahin, it's like reading the rantings of a three-year old not given what he wants.

But, oh well, who gets to shame now. I have entered this blog battle with nothing but the truth about the issues and the complete incompetence of an SC my college trusted. And it is sad to see them put themselves to nothing but sheer shame (i decided not to edit them so that every reader actually see how lewd their mouths are).

Remember, in the world of the web, it's not just the CFAD students watching; it's the world. These people don't bring shame to me, but to the university that they are proud of lambasting on a daily basis. I never said something bad about the university; and the only thing I said about the CFAD SC was the truth. The truth may have really hurt.

In my analysis, the CFAD SC may be in a process wherein they try to win as much audience as they can. Hindi na kasi bumebenta ang mga pakulo nila. They have realized that judgment day is near and they are set to be judged in a way they have never imagined. In my opinion, CFAD SC's downfall will be close, if they do not change.

And with the attitude they flaunt now, tignan natin kung sino ang matutuwa sa kanila. It is time to let the entire Thomasian community know that there are dirty mouths who destroy themselves rather than destroy me.

I pray that their mouths be extinguished with Holy Water. hehehe.

The CFAD SC Strikes My Blogs Again.

Medyo matagal na rin pala akong hindi nagbo-vlog tungkol sa CFAD SC. Perhaps many of my readers wonder why. First, because I have to focus on doing my final plates since finals were on last week, second, because they have been doing nothing worthy to blog about recently, and lastly, because any topic about them can be considered “dead air” in the blogging world.

I thought that killing this issue silently and just let them work and prove themselves would do, but after a comment that one of their alagad’s sent disguised as a CFAD student, I think that issue is worthy to be resurrected.

But first, let me put the foundations of what this blog will be about:

concerned Thomasian | slow@yahoo.com | IP: 222.127.223.69

you don’t know what you are talking about!!!!!
you are too shallow!

if you want to change places with them so badly then just tell them directly, that is if they would even let a scum like you talk to them..

don’t underestimate people if you don’t know what are they trying to do to build up their council…

—There it goes. A comment from a CFAD student. Perhaps this is something rather questionable because the CFAD community definitely knows that I am not alone in this plight.

Ok. Now, unlike the other rather obscene comments sent by concerned CFAD students who are in nature not obscene, I decided to post this one. Why? So that the entire world may see that I post comments of my detractors and that the CFAD SC is really worth kicking out because of these comments.

Which leads me to contemplation on how an incumbent officer must handle criticism from their constituents. Imagine if the CFAD SC and their illegitimate asungots were leaders of our country, then all of us would be dead by now. Because that is how they politically operate, they are AUTHORITARIANS. They do not want anything against them to prevail, and would censor to the dot whatever there is to protect their illegitimate integrity.

Of course I did not take their comments personally because they are not true. There is nothing shallow about the concern of the CFAD student constituents that I addressed and they should be working on. The issue on the water, their non-appearance, the existence of their illegitimate asungots are problems of so many years that have been addressed now. And those are problems deeply rooted in the system addressed now. And they took a direct hit of its redress.

At least now I know why they are not working, because if you look at the posting date and the date of their reply, it seems to me that all this time, they were doing nothing but think of a reply to my posts. How funny can these people get!

In the end, I espouse my position; same position as before; that they should resign on the grounds that their capability to ascend to the entire college has been lost all through this entire controversy and that their impulse all through this occurrence was unbecoming of a student leader. They would be more appreciated and more respected if they bow down to the true want of their constituents; admission of guilt and resignation.

HOTDOG AND EGGS

I am not a seasoned student leader, but I have been given some opportunities to become one. Back at high school, I was SC president. In college, I was head of publications and media affairs of the Central Student Council (AY 2005-2006). I was chairperson of the committees on Rules and Policies and Constitutional Amendments of the Union of Catholic Student Councils (UCSC) (AY 2005-2006). Currently, I am editor in chief of HIRAYA Magazine in CFAD. I don't know if they are sufficient to coin me as seasoned, but I have experienced leadership at both its best and its worst.

At this point, I am 20 years old, far from my teenage years and far from the aggression that my body once had. I am at an age where I begin to think of so many things, and take responsibility at a different perspective; from the endpoint of a big brother liking the best for his siblings.

At this point as well, I begin to reflect what a student leader should really have. And after years of exposure and moments of thinking, I realized that a student leader only needs two things: HOTDOG and EGGS. I can't even believe that I will find the answer in my favorite breakfast meal.More...

I am not trying to be green here. ::laughs::

A student leader needs that HOTDOG to steer their constituency to a new and progressive direction. The hotdog stands for a pole that will lead the way. This also stands for the strong ascendancy provided by pleasured constituents. And I strongly believe that this is relevant. If you are a leader, you must have the support of your followers to govern them; you must also have their support and their trust for you to lead them to where they think you should bring them. Where to bring them is all up to you.

The hotdog cannot be soft; soft enough to not have the moral and political mandate to govern. Nor should the hotdog be stiff; stiff enough to stir a revolution. It must be cooked just right; with enough room to change phases at every situation's call.

The hotdog must also be firm; firm to resolve any concern and to stand for what it believes in. It should compromise only when necessary and retaliate when it calls for it.

But with hotdog comes another need; EGGS. A student leader must have the EGGS to make things happen. It must have the strength, and the will to make his constituent's dreams a reality. He must have the EGGS to ensure that he shall stand through his commitments no matter what.

The eggs can't be raw though, for raw eggs are immature and are inedible. Raw eggs cannot have the mature will to decide and pursue. But it cannot be burned as well, for it may issue weak and wacked judgment. It must be cooked just right. It does not matter if it shall be sunny side up, scrambled, or boiled. It just has to be cooked just right.

Hotdog and eggs are the best breakfast combination. And the same goes with leadership, one cannot go and cannot be delicious without the other. Hotdog without eggs may sound delicious, but a leader with vision without action is not an effective leader. Just the same, eggs without hotdog represents a leader with much action but no direction. His efforts are put to waste.

So, in choosing our leaders, we must ask them, "do you have HOTDOG and EGGS?" It may sound funny, but inform them tht you mean it seriously. For without either, a leader is incomplete. Without both, a leader is not a leader.

To student leaders now, DO WE HAVE HOTDOG AND EGGS?

"Leadership is not an ability or a skill, it is a spirit. A spirit that transforms a person from common to astonishing."
-JOHN CARLO MASAJO
in his inaugural speech, July 2003   

Dahil ang Leader, OPEN DAW NG 24 HOURS.

Mukhang nagsasara ang tindahang nung una’y OPEN “kuno” ng 24 hours.

When I go to 7-11, I always remember the slogan of the CFAD student council which is “Dahil ang Leader, Open 24 Hours”.

Pero papano kapag ang open 24 hours ay nagpaikli ng operating hours? Or worse, naglimit ng products and services offered? Or papano kapag hindi na nila naibibigay ang kinakailangan?

It is but funny how our SC works. They are more like goddesses seated atop Mt. Olympus waiting for grace.  They spend their time sitting idly by doing their plates or indulging themselves in paperwork without direction.

This evening, I went to the CFAD SC office because I wanted to clarify so many things; from the way they operate until the way they see CFAD. And the answers I got were surprising. It was not the type I would receive fro students who project themselves as “OPEN 24 HOURS”.

They have defended their side, but their answer was unsubstantial. Nakakatawa na sa opinyon ng ating mga mahal na CFAD SC ay dapat tayo ang mag-inform sa kanila ng mga problema. Hindi pa ba sapat ang pagtitiis? And when they talk, it is as if they do not occupy the building.  They are funny.

While it is true that we have equal parts in caring for CFAD, as our leaders, their RESPONSIBILITY is way higher. The fact that they were chosen because of their capacity to ENVISION and LEAD, they must live through with it. But what have they done? They have always made us realize that they have done everything possible, but WALA NAMAN TALAGA.

When I began questioning about the ONE SHADE Tarpaulin proudly hung on the building’s portico, they said it was the office’s request. My issue is, WHY HAVE THEY NOT GIVEN THE C.R. equal importance as them? Are they more important? Why have they not gone beyond what is expected and begin informing us about the utilities? Because, SABI NILA, HINDI LAHAT NG GINAGAWA NILA KAILANGAN IPAALAM SA ESTUDYANTE. But I strongly believe, as I know most would as well, the CR is something we should be fully aware of.

In the same conversation, a letter from the Buildings and Grounds office was shown to me apologizing for the problem. As CFAD SC, and an extension/mediator of the administration, they must have done the apology PRIOR to BnG’s letter. SILA ANG NASA BEATO ARAW-ARAW!

So what are the flaws of the CFAD SC? From my perspective, the problems are as follows:

1. The CFAD SC has been keenly looking on several things, and the things IMPORTANT TO THE STUDENTS ARE NOT PART OF IT. The CFAD SC has looked on how eager life would be if they did events on a monthly basis, but they forget to look at the real problems, such as the RUNNING WATER. They wait for an issue to burst and then they act.

2. The CFAD SC lacks concern for the students. Ni hindi sila nakikipag-usap. They make systems to bureaucratic. Mabuti pa ang admin ng CFAD, isang sabi, aksyon. Ang CFAD SC, mabagal pa sa totoong burokrasya. They do not know the real score, and solicits the score from people close to them, or from people who are just as blind not to see the problem.

3. The CFAD SC lacks vision. The CFAD SC does not have direction. Bira lang ng bira. Activity lang ng activity. Masabi lang na may ginagawa. Masabi lang na kumikilos. They make it seem that we owe them half our life for having them sign papers. Ibang klase. Kasalanan na natin ngayon ang kaligawan ng mga kawawang kaluluwang ito. They only think of power tripping, hindi sila results oriented, and they think that we should keep on taking the problem inside. Walang direksyon. They cannot distinguish what is acceptable and tolerable from what is intolerable.

4. The CFAD SC has a lot of staffers. Isang damukal ang staffer, kulang na lang gawing staff ang buong CFAD. Pero sabi ng isang officer kanina na itago natin sa pangalang RAPHAEL KALAW, hindi nila kaya i-monitor lahat. Then this is a direct admission that there is a problem within.

5. The CFAD SC is too secretive. Hindi daw kailangan na malaman ng students and lahat ng ginagawa nila. Well, siguro kung mga walang kwentang bagay na pinasisimunuan ninyo, hindi nga. Pero if it is important and will eventually jeopardize the studies and life of CFAD students, kep us posted. Mahirap kasi yung nagsasabi ka lang sa kakilala mo. Make means to talk to everyone.

Siguro nga tiis-tiis muna tayong lahat. Kasi yan ang sabi ng student council. Inaaddress  naman daw ang problema. Kailan pa? kapag naeskandalo na sila? Siguro ganun na lan, kasi nagtitiis din ang SC. Nakakahiya naman sa kanila.

What is another moral of the experience? SA MGA SC OFFICER, HUWAG MAGPAPAALIS NG ESTUDAYNTE SA SC OFFICE. THAT IS AN ACTUAL GROUND FOR IMPEACHMENT. AND HOW DARE YOU DEAR. I HAVE 1000X MORE RIGHTS TO STEP THERE THAN YOU AND YOUR ILLEGITIMATE ASUNGOTS. HINDI MAGANDANG TIGNAN, KAHIT PA RESPECTFUL. SC OFFICER KA, KUNG NAPUPULAAN KA NG ESTUDYANTE, TIISIN MO! GINUSTO MO YAN! PANGATAWANAN MO! TIBAYAN MO DIBDIB MO! LIDER KA! HINDI KA DAPAT BUMIBIGAY AT NAGPAPAALIS KASI UTANG MO YAN SA ESTUDYANTE!

At kay Mr. Kalaw, our dearly beloved president, LAGI MONG SINASABI NA PITO LANG KAYO, 2000 KAMI. KASALANAN NINYO NA PITO LANG KAYO! HINDI NAMIN KASALANAN NA 2000 KAMI. KAYA PANGATAWANAN MO YAN! TATAKBO-TAKBO KA HINDI MO MAPANGATAWANAN. PRESIDENTE KA PA NAMAN.

Nakakahiya, ako pa ang pinaalis. Eh sila nga ang dapat SIPAIN PALABAS. What incompetence. With that incident, lalo nilang pinatunayan ang ipinaglalaban kong TOTOO: NA TUNAY SILANG INCOMPETENT.

Public office is public trust, entrusted to them throug legitimate mandate provided for by the people. Keep your promises. The CFAD students may not be talking, but we are not STUPID as you guys think we are. Nagmamasid-masid kami.

A NEW BATTLE... To Thomasians, Please Read

Note: I write this blog due to an incident that happened last night at some building at school. Unfortunately, I will have to be litigated about it.)

Perhaps, there are battles that we face to make us stronger; but there are battles that we face to test if our strength has remained or if it has gone. As for me, I am bound to face a battle where I have done nothing wrong but because of circumstances, I will have to face.

Today, I stayed home all day, thinking if there was something wrong in what I did. After several assessments, I can truly say that I have done nothing wrong.

Last night, I went to the CSC office and had the chance to talk to our President, Reyner Villasenor. And at that instance, I (pushed by he necessity and responsibility) talked to him regarding the concerns faced by the CFAD students; the bathrooms, the classrooms, the water, and everything else. I expressed my distaste towards the incumbent SC administration of the college. This may hurt but this was how I felt; they have been doing nothing.

I have told him a lot of other concerns and urged him to take action and pay a visit to Beato Angelico to see these things himself. Afterwhich, I left.

Today, I received a text message that Mr. Villasenor talked to Dr. Cabral, the Asst. to the Rector for Student ffairs, and shall be going to the CFAD SWDB on monday regarding this. Reports have it that he was hell pissed off.He may be filing a case against me.

And the reflection thus, begins. Since when was complaining declared an offense? I understand that perhaps the truth is a bitter pill to swallow, but the truth must be said. As a CFAD student, it is my right to air whatever grievance I have towards my school, and as SC, instead of panting and being pissed about it, he should have taken action.

PEOPLE WEARING CLASS HOUSES SHOULD NOT BE THROWING STONES.

In God's eyes and in the light of the handbook, I have done nothing wrong. But perhaps this is the price of reckoning with the powers that be. I have only aired what I believe is wrong, and as an elected officer of the SC, he must take action. But what he did was a surprise.

HE TOOK IT DIFFERENTLY.

This is what spells the difference. I may be gay, but I had the BALLS to tell him what was wrong. He did not have the BALLS to face the truth!!!

And so to all readers of this blog, I would like to inform you that by next week, I might be having a case filed by the CSC (I dunno what ground). But I will face this with my head on!

ANG TUNAY NA LIDER AY MAY UTAK SA BAYAG AT MAY BAYAG SA UTAK.

Huwag tayong magkilos BAKLA!

Face it the way it should be faced. Take action and tell your ALIPORES to just shut up and work harder.

Nonetheless, I still have respect for Mr. Villasenor as president of the CSC. But his means of reacting to the situation was far different. And you call yourself a LEADER?

I know that you may have a lot of connections and I have none, but let us allow scrutiny in the court of public opinion. I will face you head on! No excuses. I will face you in legitimate authorities and prove my case.

To all THOMASIANS, please understand that as an ordinary student, I was deeply offended by the fact that he will sue me for exercising my right. This so-called fighters for student freedom is the VERY FIRST PERSON TO VIOLATE HIS PROMISE. I don't know how this will turn out. With his strength, he can even have me debarred. But I am on the right side. DO NOT BE AFRAID TO TELL THE STUDENT COUNCIL THAT SOMETHING IS WRONG. We voted for them because they promised to serve us, not to PERSECUTE US when we begin to be dissatisfied.

++Sigh...++ I hope that I garner enough strength to face this battle.

call it crazy but John's on Love Mode... as posted in http://carlomasajo.multiply.com

still can't sleep... this feeling must go out right now. lovi poe won't stop playing... i don't even know who i am anymore... from a very sane and on work mode carlo to the passionate, in love carlo... mutation took quicker than expected... should i say or should i keep? that, indeed, is the question i must ask myself and i should answer...

but i cannot even quantify this emotion right now... i can't feel the emotion burn me to ashes and its flames extinguished by millions of gallons of tears... i think i am crazy... i suddenly have forgotten my bethrotal to the nation...

i can't even reveal his name... it's to premature to do so... but i think i would love to say his name for its washes away anguish and makes me feel a fresh me... but the person is scores of miles away and does not even know me... and all i can do is be mad about him and adore him in SILENCE...

i think i am ashes now... burnt by his smile and immersed in the pain of my non-expression... lovi poe still playing... and as she said "takot nang masaktan"... afraid of trying again... afraid of getting through and never coming out... afraid to even TRY...

i don't know... i seldom get emotional... i seldom play lovi poe... i guess i am in love... i want to say it to that person... but the person is in a place that only my mind can reach... and my mind and body is owned by somebody else--my people... i want him... but he people need me... but with the way i feel... i think i can try living a life in peace and quiet divorcing the nation and bethroting her to someone else... i dunno... confused, perhaps... but really in love...

first crazy blog... lovi poe almost ending... when she cries plays next... i am nearly into tears... i will tell that person as soon as he finds his way to home, and to me... but until then, i guess i will love him in the silence of myself...

REGRETS

I barely have a month to reflect on seven years of experience. Soon, I will turn to 20 years old and would not have the chance to look back since life goes full throttle by then. So while I still have a few "teenage" days, I would want to talk about things I may never have the chance to discuss when I get older.

REGRETS... I have had a few in my life. People ain't so intelligent after all. Why? Because we decide hastily and regret them after. But for me, no matter how stupid a decision is, I stick to it, most went well, a few did not but was worth it, a few did not go well and I regretted. That's life, they say... But for me, that's a lesson I should learn from.

I only have few things I regret in my life. Some of those I regret, I regret until now. Some, I have gone over. Some, they visit me to make me regret from time to time.

One of the things I regret until now is the fact that I never did well in school. I pased high school and went through some college, but when I decided to stop college, not less than a thousand people were frustrated of this decision. I truly regret this decision as I will for the rest of my life. I still cry and think about it almost every night. I think what I would have been if I decided to finish college, or if I continued, I should have been a junior student now. Things of such nature come from time to time and does not make me sleep.

But true enough, I thank God that we are given a chance or more than one chane to rectify wrong decisions. Last week, a letter from the University of Denver giving me a chance to apply in their university. This is a chance to corect the wrong decision but not to ease the regret.

REGRETS... They come, that's normal. But the beauty of life is that everytime there is something bad that happens, it gives us a chance to redo things and do them well the second time around.

The ugly part, doing it right the nxt time does not write of the regret...

Why Can't It Be...

You came along, unexpectedly
I was doing fine in my little world
Oh baby please don't get me wrong
'Cause I'm not complaining
But you see, you got my mind spinning

REFRAIN:
Why can't it be
Why can't it be the two of us
Why can't we be lovers
Only friends
You came along
At a wrong place, at a wrong time
Or was it me

Baby I dream of you every minute
You're in my dreams
You're always in it
That's the only place I know
Where you could be mine
And I'm yours but only
Till I wake up

REFRAIN:
Why can't it be
Why can't it be the two of us
Why can't we be lovers
Only friends
You came along
At a wrong place, at a wrong time
You came along
At a wrong place, at a wrong time
Or was it me

P.S.: I am dedicating this song to the person I have the most fun with; the person that makes me forget about problems and worries I have inside my mind. He is a man just beside me but I can never have.